Because, we never really stood for anything. Picking our favorite patterns and mentioning them too much to prove that we always have something to prove. That we had newer, more complex emotions... and, we knew so much more than anyone should so far before their later years. And we never really had anything to show for it, other than an empty... shadow-filled room with no one watching to see if there was perhaps another reason for the position in which we would chose to sit.
      Regards are regards are regards, are our regards. So insignificant to the majority is what we find to be interesting and wonderful and worth our while to examine and explore. I was never collecting the most silent metals at the tops of the charts; but I was always known. Aware of me, perhaps not admittedly curiosity will run it's course as it has before and will run again; into forever. Into the unknowns and into the the knowns and into the maybe's, even into the what if's and if only's... curiosity will still run and run, run it's course through life and into oblivion.
     If you want to know why I'd lost all I'd stood for, the answer is easy. I never really stood for anything. Or anyone, and I never had too much to say. Before, I might have thought I had something to prove. I didn't, I was nothing. I was nobody and nobody's somebody. Today I am accomplished, I am genuine, I am growing ever-wiser. I am defined, I am real. I bloomed beneath the organic matter, where the shell of who I previously understood as myself died slowly off into the evening, or the scenic imagery of night in terms of the scheme of things. I wiggle through one stale situation and onto the fast-pace downward spiral spinal-injury prone spiral staircase situation after another. I swear onto others that I don't think of it, yet I dream of it more regularly than ever before. So long after it was as simple as it could have been; back when things were truly and fully simplified. I thought things would be different, I never thought such burdens could be mine. But they weigh in.